alice

mommy, I'm sick ryte now.
and I don't like for being sick.
cause when I'm sick, I'm so pathetic.

mommy, most of the times I feel fragile.
like no one could guide me.
well, I still have God but sometimes I need the real voice.
then I just trapped inside with my own confusion.

I'm a grown-up. I should have know what way should I take.
but sometimes I feel like Alice, losing my way in my wonderland.
never know how should I face everyone.
are they lying? are they telling me the truth?
are they meaning every smile or words to me, or they just faking it.

mommy, am I wrong if I'm still shocked and feel hurt,
when I know about reality that bites.
or I always got my heart scratched,
when someone did something bad to me.

mommy, I think I need a good guidance for my problem.
that the world is not as good as written in H.C. Andersen books.
that there will never be a happy ending, as the Cinderella story.
cause life keep moving, everyone move on, so the end will only end when they die.

mommy, I'm sick I don't even know what this is all about.
I just need to write, to keep me sane.

Dizzy,

-lune-

Selamat Hari Ibu, Ma!

Ma, besok hari Ibu.
Aku ga bisa kasih apa-apa,
aku cuma bisa kirim surat.

Ma, dulu aku ga ngerti kenapa orang merayakan hari Ibu.
Aku dulu bahkan melewatkan tanggal itu.

Ma, meski mama sering sendirian di rumah
karna kami sibuk dengan kegiatan masing-masing,
mama hampir ga pernah ngeluh.
Mama malah memeluk kami dan berkata "semua akan baik-baik saja sayang"
di saat kami mengeluh.

Ma, kami rindu senyum mama.
kangen dipeluk mama saat pulang ke rumah.

Ma, sekarang aku mengerti hebatnya seorang Ibu.
dan betapa merayakan hari Ibu menjadi berarti.
setidaknya kami diingatkan, bahwa Ibu selalu ada untuk kami.

*cium-peluk-kangen untuk mama*

aku sayang mama :)

-lune-

lost in translation

Don't be so nice.
Don't be there when I feel empty.
Don't accompany me through my in-cheerful days.

Don't be so kind.
Don't cheer me up when I am down.
Don't treat me nice when someone just treated me bad.

Don't be that kind.
I could fall for you.
When in fact, I might lost in translation.
I just don't want to fall too hard.

Cheers,

-lune-

butterfly

No, it's not a story about the butterfly, not even about Glea.
her story will come after this, since the rain not coming to my place yet.
Today I looked at my friend's wedding invitation, and there's a quotation that bothered me.
"If you feel butterflies in your tummy, it means u'r in love"
I actually don't get the meaning. What the butterfly do in someone's tummy? and even butterflies, that means more than one.
I think, when I'm in love, I just couldn't think clear, speak clear, like a dumb.
I hope I'm not often falling in love so that I don't look like a dumb everytime.
and now, I don't even know what I'm trying to say. I couldn't even finished this whatsoever unimportant writing.
I'm dumb.

oh I almost forget the word cheers,

-lune-

If only you know

How hard this is to me.
How hurt to have you around.
How sad to see your perfect relationship.
How difficult for me not to say "are you okay?"
or when I know you're not in good condition, I really wish I could put a comment on your status.
But I can't.

and this feeling is killing.
like my gastric acid to the heart.
like the cat to the butterfly.
like the duke to the athena.

and I hate you to make me this way.

no cheers this time,

-lune-

Duke and Summer story

He's there sitting in front of the mirror, practicing his words over and over.
and all of the sudden he's having flashback.
He was going to the ball, where his little kingdom was invited.
he never like a party or stuff like that, the fact that he couldn't dance. but his father asked him to come, and he respects his old man so much. so here he is, in the neighbor-kingdom-ball he could not even remembered the name.
Okay, it's already at least half an hour and I still have 3 more hours to pass, and by the 12 I'll have my own freedom. I just have to survive a little longer, he said to himself.
Standing all alone in the corner of the hall, watching people dancing, laughing, drinking champagne -- well, at least he's drinking too only he's got no partner. Oh wait he's not alone. There's this person, standing too and doing exact like him. So he come closer. "Hi" greet Duke. "Hi too" replied the person.
"So, the party makes you bored I suppose" said Duke.
"well, not really. I'm just not a party person"
"I'm Duke by the way, and what yours if I might know?"
"Athena" with warmest smile Duke ever seen
Duke : "Wow, pretty name you have there. Nice to meet you"
Athena : " Thanks. Nice to meet you too Duke"
after long conversation they had, the clock's ticking 12 times. and that means the party is over.
Athena : "I guess it's a sign for us to go"
Duke : "Yes. Or they will force us to stay over in their rooms. Thanks Athena, I couldn't pass this party if I haven't chat with you."
Athena : "Back at you Duke. It's rare to have a man to chat with."
Duke : "So, see you?"
Athena : "See you when I see you"
Since then, they often meet each other. Either to watch movie, have dinner, or spend sometimes together.
until Athena said wants to do something special tonight, more than usual, cause the birthday is tomorrow.
And now, in front of the mirror, Duke thinks, this is it, this is the right moment. As a man, I will propose.
We suppose to meet in the fanciest restaurant in the town, and I will propose under the stars.
Athena : "Duke, this is a great restaurant. It's quite expensive isn't it?"
Duke : "Price is not the most important thing, compare to your birthday"
Athena : "That's the sweetest thing a man ever said to me. Thanks Duke"
In the end of the night, as he plans, he takes Athena to the rooftop of the resto.
Athena : "The sky is clear, look at the stars, they are very pretty"
Duke : "Just like your name"
Athena : "Hey wait a second, what are you doing?"
Duke bend the knees and hand a box. "Open it, and said it out loud. would you marry me?"
Athena : "Oh Duke please, you know I can't marry to you."
Duke : "Just because you are someone's lover, doesn't mean I can't marry you right?"
Athena : "It's not just that. I'm not pretty as my name. Sorry, I couldn't give the best answer in this lovely moment"
Duke : "I don't care about you're not being pretty, about you're even belong to someone. All I want is to be with you."
Athena : "I'm so sorry. I like you too Duke, but just a friend to chat with. Sorry if I make you disappointing. I have a fiancee and I will marry her in the next three months."
Duke never feel that broken-heart. He is speechless. He never got rejection before. But here, for the first time, he is rejected. By a guy, who just pretty by his goddess name, Athena.

"You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved, and you will never understand what pain really is until you have lost it."

Miss you Duke,

-lune-

saya mau kamu tau

kalo kamu udah bikin hati saya sakit.
kalo kamu udah bikin saya nangis-nangis setelah saya kenal kamu.
kalo kamu udah bikin perasaan saya campur aduk dan mengalahkan logika yang ada.

tapi kamu juga bikin hati saya berdebar-debar.
kamu juga bikin saya senyum-senyum di suatu saat.
dan kamu bikin logika menjadi tidak penting, karna kamu lebih penting.

otak saya bilang saya harus lupain kamu, hindarin kamu.
teman saya bilang saya harus hindarin kamu, lupain kamu.
cuma hati saya yang bertahan. entah apa yang ada di benak hati saya.

saya mau kamu tau.
saya mau kamu mendengar lagu-lagu yang menggambarkan perasaan saya.
tapi saya terlalu malu.
malu kalau kamu tau, dan kalau di pikiran saya cuma ada kamu melulu.

rumah, 18 April 2009 ( seminggu saya ngindarin kamu-itu juga kalo kamu tau)
- lune -

cerita hujan di pertengahan sore -- side story

Hari ini, hujan belum menunjukkan kehadirannya padaku.
tapi petir bergemuruh seolah memberi tanda, "hujan akan datang"
Jadi, aku mulai mempersiapkan pulpen dan notesku dengan rapih di meja.
untuk mendengarkan cerita hujan, di pertengahan sore..

Hujan hari ini membawa cerita dari seorang kupu-kupu. Kupu-kupu cantik bernama Glea yang sedang bermain kala hujan melintas. Ia meneduh di rumah penduduk sekitar.
Glea masih kecil sehingga ia begitu takut bajunya basah. Kasihan Ibu yang mencuci, ujarnya. Ia meneduh lama sampai tidak menyadari ada yang sedang mengintip dari balik jendela.
Cress namanya. Cress tinggal di dalam sangkar seperti Istana berlapis emas. Hampir semua kebutuhannya terpenuhi. Tidak pernah dalam hidupnya, ia mempunyai keinginan sedalam ini. keinginan yang begitu menggebu-gebu seolah memaksa keluar dari dada. Betapa Cress ingin sekali menyentuh Glea, sekedar berteman dengannya, atau berkata "kamu cantik".

Cress hanya bisa memandangi dari kejauhan.. Berusaha memanggil namanya pun belum tentu Glea akan menyukai suaranya. Ahh.. Cress jadi dilema. Bingung sendiri apa yang harus ia lakukan. Mungkin aku bisa bernyanyi, begitu pikirnya. Tapi.. nyanyian apa yang cocok untuk makhluk seindah ini yah. Mungkin, Ia sudah bosan menerima berbagai macam nyanyian dari para pria yang menyimpan hasrat yang sama padanya. Setelah berpikir lama, ia masih belum menemukan jawaban, apa yang harus ia lakukan untuk menarik perhatian Glea.
Namun hujan keburu reda, dan Glea sudah terbang menuju kebebasannya. Meninggalkan Cress yang masih diam termenung. Akhirnya Cress membuat surat, yang ia harap hujan sampaikan pada Glea..

"Indah. Aku tidak tahu namamu. Aku tidak tahu apakah kamu peri atau malaikat. Seumur hidupku, baru kali ini aku melihat makhluk seindah dirimu. Berada di istana emas, tempat makan terbuat dari mutiara, aku pikir tidak ada yang lebih indah dari ini. Lalu aku melihat dirimu, betapa aku menyadari pasti lebih banyak lagi hal-hal indah di dunia ini yang belum pernah aku lihat. Nanti, ketika kamu kemari, ceritakan banyak hal tentang dunia sana yah. Aku akan selalu berada di istana emas ini, di balik jendela, tempat kita pertama kali bertemu. Aku akan selalu ada di sini. Salam."

Cress menunggu, hampir sebulan berlalu, Glea tak kunjung datang. Apakah ia harus menulis surat lagi? Ahh tidak, nanti Glea pasti akan menemuinya. Membawa cerita indah mengenai dunia di luar sana. Tapi, bila musim hujan berakhir, lalu nanti siapa yang akan menyampaikan surat-suratnya? Cress selalu setia menunggu. Seperti janjinya di dalam surat.

Sampai akhirnya tiba suatu saat Cress berhasil keluar dari sarang emasnya untuk pertama kali. Tapi ia keluar bukan untuk menjumpai Glea. Ia hanya berpindah tempat, ke dalam peti emas, di pekarangan depan rumahnya.
Dan hari itu hujan deras sekali, seolah langit turut berduka bagi kepergian Cress, kucing Anggora berusia 12 tahun tersebut.

"If there ever comes a day when we can't be together, keep me in your heart.
I'll stay there forever"

Cheers,

-lune-

...

aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana.
dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan kayu,
kepada api yang menjadikannya abu.
aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana.
dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan awan,
kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada.
(puisi karya Sapardi Djoko Damono)


aku tidak punya kata-kata indah layaknya penyair.
aku tidak punya cerita untuk disuguhkan layaknya pengarang.
aku tidak punya modal untuk menyukaimu, sungguh.
aku cuma punya hati, itupun sudah penuh dengan goresan.


Cheers,

-lune-

irritable truth about men

1. The nice men are ugly.
2. The handsome men are not nice.
3. The handsome and nice men are gay.
4. The handsome, nice, and heterosexual men are married.
5. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men, have no money.
6. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men with money think we are only after their money.
7. The handsome men without money are after our money.
8. The handsome men, who are not so nice and somewhat heterosexual, don't think we are beautiful enough.
9. The men who think we are beautiful, that are heterosexual, somewhat nice and have no money, are cowards.
10. The men who are somewhat handsome, somewhat nice and have money and thank God are straight, are shy and NEVER MAKE THE FIRST MOVE!!!
11. The men who never make the first move, automatically lose interest in us when we take the initiative. NOW...WHO THE HELL UNDERSTANDS MEN?!?! .

Just for Fun xD
Cheers,

-lune-

Dear you,

I want you to know,
dear Guy whom I wrongfully fall for..

I dont blame my heart when she was falling for you.
I dont blame my brain when he was not take care of my heart of falling for you.
I dont blame you when you're being nice to me
I dont blame me when I'm here listening to you're stories
You're there when someone gone.
you're almost always there during my days.
so, it was my mistake to have more-than-friend feeling.
but I wont say why, because I think you already know the answer.

yet, you're still there but it's okay, cause I already handle the feeling I used to have.
and I'm glad we still be friend :)

Cheers,

-lune-

Dear Tya,

Lately I really need to talk to you. I know you’re in peace now. But I just need your advice.

I don’t know how to start it, I just think of end it.

I think I make a mistake, and I’m trapped inside, without knowing that might be disappointing to others.

I should have told you before you’re leaving this place, but sorry always come later.

The point is I always have principle about something that start wrongly, will end badly. Karma does exist.

So I think I should end this. End this feeling and back to normal. Though I feel sad and hurts, I should do this.

I hope I’m on the right path.I feel like losing my mind and also my heart.

and I need you to drive me back, to where it really belongs.

kinda losing you my lovely bestfriend,

-lune-

About Him

this is what I really feel,
without limitation and boundaries I make the post.
because the mind and the heart not recognize those things.

I'm mindless when I have to describe things, related to you.
a very mature guy who sometimes act like a little boy.
I chat with you almost everyday, at least when I'm online.
we talk about everything that we like.
even about the unimportance things.
we share our dreams, our hopes, though then we're back to reality.
but I like it. and so do you.
you said hopes, keep us alive.

I don't know what my mind thinks of you,
I don't know what my heart feels of you.
For me, you are a good partner to talk to.
It's always nice and fun to have chat with you.

for now, can I just write these things?
later I will let my heart write itself.
and it's already late at night.

Cheers,

-lune-
19 oct 2009

A Guy with no name

you shared the story,
and so I tell the world how it begins.

here's my part :
It's hard for me to tell your stories.
I don't even become the part of the stories.
I just know you and your girl.
I was closed to your girlfriend.
So it makes me sometimes confused how to react.
because I can't make any side.
I'm here for you, because I care.
and I hope it's only because I care.

your part :
you have a relationship with a girl
but you two have a major difference. something principal.
back then, you know that will become a problem.
but you said, you were naive *well, being in love makes u naive almost all the time actually*
and at the beginning, things went not really well. it went bad sometimes.
but you fought for it, for the relationship.
and as a year past by, now you feel the uncertainty.
yet your mind is playing around in your head.
and you just can't manage them as you manage the files in your desk.
so the problems still hang around in your heart.
though you share me the stories, I can't give you the best answer.
I just being a listener, hope to be a good one.

me to you :
I hope this not really good post, could represent what I think of you.
or at least you'll know what I feel, what I think.
you wish you are the prince charming, you will dear.
but perhaps for someone else.
God always know what is right for the people.
It's just the people who have asked for more.
you will find your partner. that suits you the most.
that could accompany you for the rest of your life.
because God will give what you need, not what you want.

Cheers,

-lune-
19 Oct 2009

Cinta?

Topik yang selalu ramai dan asik untuk dijadikan pembicaraan.
Rasanya hidup tanpa cinta, seperti sayur tanpa isi.
Jadi bukannya hambar lagi, tapi hampa.
Banyak yang memuja cinta, banyak yang membencinya.
Manusia bisa terlahir karena cinta, banyak juga yang mati karenanya.
Mati karena cinta katanya.
Kata yang tidak bisa dideskripsikan secara pasti, dan tidak ada yang benar2 sepaham akan arti cinta itu sendiri.
yang pasti, cinta itu beda dengan kasih dan sayang. karena cinta, masih membawa hasrat dan nafsu.

Saya sendiri bukan orang yang paham dengan masalah percintaan, apalagi ahlinya. Jauh.
toh saya baru pacaran 2 kali, pernah menyukai orang yang ternyata lesbi, sempat HTS-an dengan anak yang lebih muda dari saya, dan terakhir sangat menyukai seorang gay. Ya, boleh dibilang percintaan is not really my thing.
Tapi teman-teman suka sekali menceritakan percintaan mereka ke saya.
Mulai dari anak kecil-orang tua, wanita-lelaki, single-married-divorce.

Saya buat notes ini terinspirasi oleh post yang dibuat @vstefy.
cause love is just not about love. Love is not that simple, yet it's not that complicated too.
it's not like 1+1 = 2 . there's also a 'plus' and an 'equal' there.

when you're in love, enjoy it. but not put too much on love.
remember, you still have family & friends.
and when you're in broken hearted, enjoy it with fun :)
You'll miss the moment once you get through it.
Love won't go anywhere, cause love is like one of your five senses,
it's the main sense of all anyhow.
So, just live side by side with love :)

Tuhan

setahun yang lalu waktu mama aku sakit,
aku bilang kalo aku cape, dan Tuhan ambil dia dari aku.

sebulan yang lalu waktu ade aku sakit,
aku bilang kalo aku ga boleh cape supaya Tuhan ga ambil dia dari aku.

sekarang, aku ga berharap siapapun sakit,
tapi kalau aku bilang cape apa Tuhan akan ambil seseorang lagi?

Aku tahu kalau Tuhan ga akan memberikan ujian
buat orang yang ga kuat menjalaninya.

dan aku juga ga menganggap ujian ini sebagai ujian.
ini cuma cara supaya aku lebih kuat.
tapi kenapa aku ga kuat-kuat yah?

aku juga ga suka jadi lemah.
aku ga suka untuk menyerah.
tapi kadang aku lelah.
dan saat ini, aku.. entahlah..

-Maafkan aku Tuhan, karena bersikap tidak sopan pada Mu. Aku hanya bisa cerita kepada-Mu-

lune, 5 Oktober 2009

it's a farewell

I know you like sometimes ago
from the first time, you gave me the good impression
U had the prettiest smile, a guy could have.

we had like major difference
first, we had nothing in common
second, u like man -ahh shoot, that's our similarity
third, it's a one-way crush.
even no busway could across

and it hurts me always so,
when I had to see your guys around you.
and when I have to face the truth
that I'm not your priority.
yeah, I'm nothing.

and tonight I'm crying like a baby,
makes my eyes look even more bad
though tomorrow I have to look pretty in my friend's wedding
damn you.

I even feel the distance, now before you go.
and I hope you'll be just fine there. so long.

just another goodbye

but now u said it first.
as you go to the island of faraway,
u send the letter by the pigeon.
and here I am still shocked reading the letter.

even before I said it.
I heart you, with or without your guys

A letter to heaven Part 1

Dear Mom,
How are you? Been a year not hearing anything about you.
Heaven is a beautiful place I suppose, because you don't even feel to leave it.
But a life in here, not as good as the life you have there.
Well, we're fine. the family is good. we took care each other, and it went well.
Still, things just don't feel the same without you by our side.

You know mom, you're a funny mom. you know how to treat us and sometimes make us make fun of you.
and when I feel sick, I really want to hug you real bad.
when I feel hurt, I want to come home just to see your smile.
though back then we're not in heaven, but your smile really feels like an angel :)

You said you want to live until your youngest daughter gives you a grand daughter.
but man propose, God dispose.
But you will live in our heart for ever mom. because you're a great mom and will always be.
I Love You Mom. I hope the angel deliver this letter to you.

trying to always smile and be your sweet little angel,

-lune-

aku cuma mau bilang...

suatu hari hati bercakap-cakap dengan otak.

hati: "ah. aku suka dia. aku cuma mau sama dia"
otak : "mana bisa. memangnya kamu tidak lihat perbedaan kalian yang besaaaar sekali?"
hati : "memangnya kenapa kalau berbeda? bukankah perbedaan itu indah?"
otak membatin. "ahh aku lupa, kamu cuma bisa merasa"

1 bulan kemudian, hati menangis-nangis.

otak : "hey. kenapa menangis? aku kan jadi tidak bisa berpikir"
hati : "sepertinya aku bertepuk sebelah tangan. perbedaan cuma alasan dari satu sisi."
otak : "I told you so"
hati : "tapi aku suka sama dia. aku cuma mau sama dia"

2 bulan kemudian, hati bersiul-siul.

otak : "lohh..sekarang kamu sepertinya senang sekali? sudah ada gebetan baru?"
hati : "ahh..tidak, masih dia kok. dia baik deh sama aku. tuh kan untung aku sabar. karena aku suka dia dan cuma mau sama dia"
otak : "fine by me. selama tidak mengganggu produktivitas dan aktivitas"

3 bulan kemudian, hati merenung menyendiri.

otak : "ada apa sih. kok kayaknya kamu lagi banyak pikiran. padahal kan itu tugasku?"
hati : "hmm aku hanya lagi berusaha merasakan lagi. apakah yang aku lakukan sudah benar yah?"
otak : "menurutku sih itu hal yang sia-sia yah. toh pada akhirnya, kalian memang berbeda"
hati : "tapi aku masih suka sama dia. cuma dia"

4 bulan kemudian, hati terlihat syok dan memojok.

otak : "lohh..kok kamu terlihat horor sekali. padahal tadi aku lihat kamu gembira ria. bukannya seneng abis ketemu dia?"
hati : "seneng sih. tapi aku sepertinya aku benar-benar tidak bisa sama dia deh. tapi aku masih mau sama dia. rasanya kalau sama dia, menyenangkan dan susah digambarkan"
otak : "ya ampun. tapi mood kamu bikin saya jadi tidak bisa berpikir jernih tahu."
hati : "cuma mau sama dia, titik."

5 bulan kemudian, akhir cerita ini.

hati : "kayaknya belakangan ini aku egois banget yah?"
otak : "maksudnya?"
hati : "yahh.. memaksakan kehendak. menyuruh kamu untuk kompromi. cuma berpikir bahwa aku menderita kalau ga ada dia. padahal kamu juga menderita karena ulahku"
otak : "bisa dibilang begitu, tapi kita kan partner. selama masih wajar aku ngikut aja"
hati : "aku rasa, aku akan mundur saja. mundur teratur"
otak : "mundur teratur dari dia? yang kamu suka dan kamu maunya cuma sama dia? kenapa?"
hati : "karena kita partner. dan kita kerja sama, bukannya hanya nurutin kemauan sendiri. dan aku rasa, ini udah jalannya."
otak : "oke. pelan-pelan aja yah..meski berat, aku tau kamu bisa. kamu masih punya aku"
(dan hatipun tersenyum)

goodbye duke :)

-lune-
rumah, 17 Agustus 2009 (Happy Independence Day Indonesia #indonesiaunite)

I'm not crazy, I'm just crazy of Duke.

Dear Duke,

It isn't easy to tell you. How I feel right now. but I try to write it down in this letter, that will never you receive anyway, yet will release my heart from pain.
I'm bad when I said 'pain' it's like u're some kind of disease to me. no you're not.
It's just, I'm on my monthly syndrome -woman- so what I feel kinda like rollercoaster.
Now I'm on my higher feeling of you than some days ago. Oh, how I like you.
You know Duke,
it's okay when you cannot be a man. be a real man.
it's okay when you cannot play football, or do some sports.
it's okay when you sometimes act like a cute little boy.
You're still my Duke. see, that name even makes you more masculine in every way.
I will never see your minus, because you're always be my plus.
I will not push you to do some sports or act like a real man. because you're my man.
and if you like to be or like to act like a cute little boy, you could always be my little boy.
It's already late at night, get some rest Duke. sleep tight dear :)

bisous,
-lune-

oh dear oh dear (it's just an introduction)

I met you, some night on Monday in my dream. we were doing nothing, but we were having fun.
I really like that moment, even when it's only in my dream. you have no name, but I'm going to call you Duke.
I just like the name, Duke. sounds nice and elegant. Okay Duke, from this day, you will receive a lot of sweet words from me :)

bisous,
-lune-

I want to be a boy!

bla bla bla..blah blah blah

and no, I'm not having those trans gender issue whatsoever.
just my stupid simple thought, man of my last nite dream.
now, I feel more stupid -to fall in love with someone unreal-

I thought, I couldn't sense things anymore.
I thought, I couldn't feel anything anymore.
I thought, I just couldn't.

but, voila, I dreamed of you last nite.
we were doing nothing. really.
but I like our not-do-anything things.
and I think, I could feel something now.

though, it's you.
someone who is impossible to see, impossible to touch, impossible to be possessed.
and I start to think to be more not realistic.
I want to be a boy.
because I just want to be your type.

and would you consider me, if I were a boy?

cheers,

-lune-

deadlocked

that's my brain I'm talking about. yes, I have a brain deadlocked.
my life is in verrrryyyy comfort zone and I don't feel like I want to make any movement.
but I should, I must, I have to. so this is the start, by writing something.
at least my brain could think of something, think of what words should I write down here.
I want to tell about my life, about my dream last nite but it's kinda private and I don't want to make it public -LOL-
so here I am again. I should study for a test. I should learn about history and news that happend recently in the whole world, but I'm lazy. I just do harvest in farmville or play with my miu-miu in pet society. stupid me.
I want to move on, from everything that seems very comfort. that makes me really lazy, even to think of something. think! learn! write!
that's all. because I couldn't think of else anymore. blahblahblahblah.

cheers,

-lune-

what so special about INDONESIA?

Indonesia is one large country with its 200 something millions citizens. Indonesia more or less 18 thousands islands, beautiful islands. Lies between Australia and Asia continents. Those are the lessons about Indonesia that being thaught since elementary school. But here, I wanna share a lot of other interesting facts about Indonesia. If you ask me why, I will answer WHY NOT?


- Indonesia has a lot of tribes so in Indonesia we have various tradition with its clothes and its food
- Indonesian people are so friendly, we give our warmest smile even to stranger or tourists that come to Indonesia
- Indonesian food are so delicious and tasty with various spices that grow all over the nation. And when you open #indonesiaunite in twitter, you might found out that Indonesian (who stay in Indonesia or all over the world) must be really like and try to find Indonesian food wherever they go.
- We respect others. Though Indonesia become the biggest country with its moslem population in the world, but we have five religions here. Buddha, Hindu, Christian, Catholic, and Islam. we tolerate and respect one another. When Moslem do Fasting Day for a month, a lot of foodcourt close their place with gordyn. Or when Hindu celebrate "Nyepi" in Bali, almost all the electricity in Bali is turn off and there's no flights to or from Bali during the day and the day before.
- We care each other. when others are in trouble, they will give what they could to help. and it's not always about the money. when Aceh got Tsunami, or when there was an earthquake in Jogjakarta, or even when there was Prita (http://www.thejakartapost.com/news/2009/06/09/ago-investigate-banten-prosecutors-over-prita-case.html?1) case everybody like really care to help whatever might works to help.
and the latest was when incident of Jakarta bombing in two luxury hotels (Ritz Carlton and JW Marriot.
Couple days ago a movement called #indonesiaunite in Twitter try to give understanding to others that Indonesia is okay. Indonesia is still stand here. and #indonesiaunite became Top Trending Topics for several days, beat #Keep Paula, #iranelection or Michael Jackson. Not to underestimate others, it's just we unite here and we show that we care for our Indonesia.
- We fight against terrorism. Terrorist do terror to fear anyone. But there are no single religion ever support to any violence. So, terrorist never represent any religion, any nation and any tradition in the world.

As the first President of Indonesia had declared "Bhineka Tunggal Ika" (Unity in Diversity) we are now gathered and united in Indonesia, and to make Indonesia become a better nation with its qualified next generation. Our Minister Jero Wacik said about the "seeing is believing" things, so before you come to Indonesia you wouldn't easily believe the magnificent nature of Indonesia. But you may take a look of this link to commercial that promote Visit Indonesia 2009, it's just a little but it could gives you the picture about Indonesia http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iLaTDP3j3sw

and if you again ask me why? because I heart Indonesia FULL and am proud to be Indonesian :)

someone just press DELETE on me

Never had in mind that I will feel this sadness again. and that's because of 1 person.
and never realize that 1 person is important to me, at least until he deletes me from his FB friendlist. yet, he also deletes me from his YM.
Actually, I never check 1 by 1 of my friendlist in FB. I noticed he's no longer become my friend when I played Pet Society and he's no longer become my neighbour (see, he's not even that important). I checked my friends, and I didn't find him!
I send message on his YM but he didn't reply anything.
then I texted to him, he didn't reply that too until couple hours later.
and his message was kinda rude. he just said yes, but he didn't explain why.
When 3 days ago my ex said that I'm no longer become his friend in FB because his girlfriend deleted me from his friendlist. and it's SO OKAY for me. really do.

but this -ohhowimportantpersonyouare- makes me sad. I can't even sleep well. arghhh. so shocked. when I quote "you never know when someone press PLAY on your paused life" I never thought that the DELETE button is also in there.
and he just press DELETE on me. really ruined our so-called friendship.
thanks ngga, for everything you have said and done.


not so cheers tonight,

-lune-

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince (not a review just my point of view)

everybody might know that is the title of the sixth Harry Potter movie that just released recently. It's not a review nor a summary, just an opinion from someone who really like the book. one of my favorite book if I may say. so if you happen to think this is a review, you could just stop read from this point.
finally, this movie go to public. after a year of waiting. yes, this movie should release last year, but because of the Twilight movie, the Warner Bros as the home production was postpone it. they scared that Harry Potter will gone under the "Twilight Fever". and yes they're right, "twilight fever" is all around the world.

but then HP 6 is released, many people feel disappointed. and why so?
people had waiting for too long but the movie seems standard. monotonous If I could quote from my friend status. days before I watch HP 6 movie, I read a lot of those status on Facebook how they feel so dissapointed with the newest HP movie.
from that, I couldn't expect more, but I should watch no matter what.

then I watch it. and I like it. really.
though I watched it with my friend who always said that movie is too long, not good.
I didn't think so. I really enjoyed it. I really like how the details in the book is described well. and even in my thoughts, the movie isn't long enough to describe all of the details. like the prince, why the half blood prince named prince etc. but, I don't feel dissapointed. strange.
perhaps it's because I didn't expect much or I just really like the HP :D

so if you don't want to feel the dissapointment, do not expect much.
but if you already watched the movie and felt that, I suggest you to read the book.
from the very beginning if you have to.

happy reading and watching and enjoying your long weekend ^_^

cheers,

-lune-

Poor Lucky part 0.5

This is a story about my dear far far away friend ..
I know him since years ago, before he moved out to that far away kingdom.
let's just call him Lucky, but his love life is not as lucky as his name.

Lucky once had a girlfriend name eru. Eru and Lucky surely in love and they're seems meant for each other. Eru is Lucky high school mates, so he met her almost everyday. Eru is a cute little girl with many friends aroun her. and Lucky is a big funny boy and everyone really like him. Then, their love was blessed by everyone around them.

but they were never thought that will be other side who didn't like their togetherness.
school. eru' parents. or perhaps, something else?

one day, the school called lucky. he was interogated by school.
school : "do you have relationship with eru?"
lucky : "mmm.. yes. what's the matter?"
school : "and how long have you been with her?"
lucky : "almost a year. is there something wrong sir?"
school : "well, the problem is eru' family didn't like your relationship. could you just break up with her?"
lucky feels confused. in his mind there's voice said "hey why school is now also taking care of somebody' relationship?" but he didn't say that out loud. it's not polite and he knows it eventhough he really want to.
lucky : "No I dont want that sir, I like her a lot."
school : "You have to break up with her. end of discussion. You may leave kid."
lucky left the teacher' room, he couldn't back to his class. he couldn't think clear. so he better just went to cafetaria and wait there if eru will come there as they always meet everyday after class. "yes, I will wait for her here. just 1 more hours"

f.r.i.e.n.d.s

ahh actually I dont want to upload picture of me heee~ but I really like this picture and every picture tells story anyway.
we're friends since highschool but in this frame, minus Nana -went to Bangka when we're taking this pic- and Tya - I make a post for and about her later on-

love u alwaysssss girls *bisous*

cheers,

-lune-

men and love or men in love

today, my highschool friend made a call and shared his painful broken heart story.
he was so sad that his ex (and he still mentioned that the woman as his gf) is close to another guy.
he never thought that she could do that to him, by this I mean move on from him.
so sad to hear him like that because, he seems so fragile and try to keep his tears coming out.
in fact he's a tough and silly guy I ever know.
another guy, my college friend, called me the day before when I was about to go to Karo event. yeahh~
he told me that he's in a shocked-depressed condition that he never felt that before. and it's because someone said that his ex -again- is going to get married in two weeks. whew~
when he heard the news, he couldn't sleep, think clear, or do whatever right. he thought that girl will come back to him after all. ahh what happend to you guys, to be so confident about yourself.

just remember back then when some friend tell me about the differences between men and women when it deals with heart.
men with their 9 logics and 1 feeling while women with their 9 feelings and 1 logic.
women crying all the times when they are sad, happy, or having broken heart.
and actually by that, women learn how to face it so when the problems come she knows the solution.
but when men having broken heart -with someone he really in love- his logics covered by his feeling and couldn't think right. and sometimes confused how to face it, because they're not use to it.
and it makes me sad when I could only say "dont worry, time will heal your broken heart" and you guys feel dissapointed because there's no magic thing that could remove straight away your broken heart.

so boys, get use to it okay ^_^

cheers,

-lune-

just the beginning. hello!

this is my first blog. yippie! soooo excited. though I kinda confuse what should I write here.
I should've asked my friends who are experts and been here before.
but I'm still happy~ yeyy~

well, my daily activity is a little bit boringggg. I come to office, sit in front of my laptop, check emails, do facebook, update status in twitter, chat in my YM with friends who have real works to do.
and today, I decided to begin my desire since little. I want to be a writer. any kind of writer.
and make my life not that meaningless.

and this is just my beginning. hope I could write something more meaningful.
yaiks, what the meaning of those meaning meaning.

cheers,

-lune-