Monday, October 26, 2009

Dear Tya,

Lately I really need to talk to you. I know you’re in peace now. But I just need your advice.

I don’t know how to start it, I just think of end it.

I think I make a mistake, and I’m trapped inside, without knowing that might be disappointing to others.

I should have told you before you’re leaving this place, but sorry always come later.

The point is I always have principle about something that start wrongly, will end badly. Karma does exist.

So I think I should end this. End this feeling and back to normal. Though I feel sad and hurts, I should do this.

I hope I’m on the right path.I feel like losing my mind and also my heart.

and I need you to drive me back, to where it really belongs.


kinda losing you my lovely bestfriend,


-lune-

Sunday, October 18, 2009

About Him

this is what I really feel,
without limitation and boundaries I make the post.
because the mind and the heart not recognize those things.

I'm mindless when I have to describe things, related to you.
a very mature guy who sometimes act like a little boy.
I chat with you almost everyday, at least when I'm online.
we talk about everything that we like.
even about the unimportance things.
we share our dreams, our hopes, though then we're back to reality.
but I like it. and so do you.
you said hopes, keep us alive.

I don't know what my mind thinks of you,
I don't know what my heart feels of you.
For me, you are a good partner to talk to.
It's always nice and fun to have chat with you.

for now, can I just write these things?
later I will let my heart write itself.
and it's already late at night.

Cheers,

-lune-
19 oct 2009

A Guy with no name

you shared the story,
and so I tell the world how it begins.

here's my part :
It's hard for me to tell your stories.
I don't even become the part of the stories.
I just know you and your girl.
I was closed to your girlfriend.
So it makes me sometimes confused how to react.
because I can't make any side.
I'm here for you, because I care.
and I hope it's only because I care.

your part :
you have a relationship with a girl
but you two have a major difference. something principal.
back then, you know that will become a problem.
but you said, you were naive *well, being in love makes u naive almost all the time actually*
and at the beginning, things went not really well. it went bad sometimes.
but you fought for it, for the relationship.
and as a year past by, now you feel the uncertainty.
yet your mind is playing around in your head.
and you just can't manage them as you manage the files in your desk.
so the problems still hang around in your heart.
though you share me the stories, I can't give you the best answer.
I just being a listener, hope to be a good one.

me to you :
I hope this not really good post, could represent what I think of you.
or at least you'll know what I feel, what I think.
you wish you are the prince charming, you will dear.
but perhaps for someone else.
God always know what is right for the people.
It's just the people who have asked for more.
you will find your partner. that suits you the most.
that could accompany you for the rest of your life.
because God will give what you need, not what you want.

Cheers,

-lune-
19 Oct 2009





Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Cinta?

Topik yang selalu ramai dan asik untuk dijadikan pembicaraan.
Rasanya hidup tanpa cinta, seperti sayur tanpa isi.

Jadi bukannya hambar lagi, tapi hampa.
Banyak yang memuja cinta, banyak yang membencinya.
Manusia bisa terlahir karena cinta, banyak juga yang mati karenanya.

Mati karena cinta katanya.
Kata yang tidak bisa dideskripsikan secara pasti, dan tidak ada yang benar2 sepaham akan arti cinta itu sendiri.
yang pasti, cinta itu beda dengan kasih dan sayang. karena cinta, masih membawa hasrat dan nafsu.

Saya sendiri bukan orang yang paham dengan masalah percintaan, apalagi ahlinya. Jauh.
toh saya baru pacaran 2 kali, pernah menyukai orang yang ternyata lesbi, sempat HTS-an dengan anak yang lebih muda dari saya, dan terakhir sangat menyukai seorang gay. Ya, boleh dibilang percintaan is not really my thing.
Tapi teman-teman suka sekali menceritakan percintaan mereka ke saya.
Mulai dari anak kecil-orang tua, wanita-lelaki, single-married-divorce.

Saya buat notes ini terinspirasi oleh post yang dibuat @vstefy.
cause love is just not about love. Love is not that simple, yet it's not that complicated too.
it's not like 1+1 = 2 . there's also a 'plus' and an 'equal' there.

when you're in love, enjoy it. but not put too much on love.

remember, you still have family & friends.
and when you're in broken hearted, enjoy it with fun :)

You'll miss the moment once you get through it.
Love won't go anywhere, cause love is like one of your five senses,

it's the main sense of all anyhow.
So, just live side by side with love :)





Sunday, October 4, 2009

Tuhan

setahun yang lalu waktu mama aku sakit,
aku bilang kalo aku cape, dan Tuhan ambil dia dari aku.

sebulan yang lalu waktu ade aku sakit,
aku bilang kalo aku ga boleh cape supaya Tuhan ga ambil dia dari aku.

sekarang, aku ga berharap siapapun sakit,
tapi kalau aku bilang cape apa Tuhan akan ambil seseorang lagi?

Aku tahu kalau Tuhan ga akan memberikan ujian
buat orang yang ga kuat menjalaninya.

dan aku juga ga menganggap ujian ini sebagai ujian.
ini cuma cara supaya aku lebih kuat.
tapi kenapa aku ga kuat-kuat yah?

aku juga ga suka jadi lemah.
aku ga suka untuk menyerah.
tapi kadang aku lelah.
dan saat ini, aku.. entahlah..

-Maafkan aku Tuhan, karena bersikap tidak sopan pada Mu. Aku hanya bisa cerita kepada-Mu-

lune, 5 Oktober 2009

Friday, October 2, 2009

it's a farewell

I know you like sometimes ago
from the first time, you gave me the good impression
U had the prettiest smile, a guy could have.

we had like major difference
first, we had nothing in common
second, u like man -ahh shoot, that's our similarity
third, it's a one-way crush.
even no busway could across

and it hurts me always so,
when I had to see your guys around you.
and when I have to face the truth
that I'm not your priority.
yeah, I'm nothing.

and tonight I'm crying like a baby,
makes my eyes look even more bad
though tomorrow I have to look pretty in my friend's wedding
damn you.

I even feel the distance, now before you go.
and I hope you'll be just fine there. so long.

just another goodbye

but now u said it first.
as you go to the island of faraway,
u send the letter by the pigeon.
and here I am still shocked reading the letter.

even before I said it.
I heart you, with or without your guys